i wish...

 wish i could pause my feelings for at least a week

so i could rest on the clouds

and the loud noises would not be that annoying

or even the silence

that loud silence that kills me inside

wish i could stay stable for a couple months

wish i could be normal

but i will always remain alien

i wonder what i will be tomorrow

when the storm in my brain fades

i wish my eyes where closed

i wish that i could stop the overthinking

but i just keep on sinking

deep in my soul

down in a hole